smh at you trust...never on my side.

"Why are you even with me?"-currently thinking

love is never set in stone

but my stone studded heart is set on him.

the pain and joy of a relationship is all to familiar to me, so why risk a crumbled heart?

its the fact that he even WANTS my teeny crumbling heart...

the fact that his is still huge and thumping with life worries me to death..selfish it is

but such a big young heart ready to keep steady with a feeble one?
is it possible he could have so much love to give & its not exactly my turn yet?
20 years old and has never been in love...where as im only 18 and i've been through 3 heartbreaks?


do i love to much? is it really love that im feeling or am i mistaking this for something else?

this cant be something else because everything else was different although similar..but i honestly do love him with all my heart and its so different from a love i ever felt so why even feel hurt?

i'm losing my mind without him

going crazy with him

the balance is rare...but when it is

i'm in Heaven. :(

Calamity.

Yeah my heart beats on an off steady pace
cant control the hurt but its painted on my face

mac brushes wouldnt skill a smile if they could
eye shadows wouldnt shine light to a mind misunderstood

i'm told speak but i put life on mute
theres very few things to say
Just to be titled cute
normal
happy
free of misery
but thats my best friend
my right hand so we stay seeking company
my rhyme scheme fucked up
besides this poem
life dont flow like it did a year ago
stuck in a drought
most people assume more then they actually know about
ME.

good girls are incredibly hard to believe
trust
and understand YOU SEE

bad girls fucked up for the rest of us
no blame

behind every bad girl is a bad boy put to shame

its their own doing never know why they actually complain,

shout it out girl "YOU MADE ME THIS WAY!"

all i can do
put my heart on everything
trusting him not to break it, his is in safe keeping.

but i honestly want to know WHY do people want the worse for the people they claim

"DESERVE THE BEST"

& best friends are quick to judge
tatooing criticism across ya chest
cuz ya heart beating something real
pretend its nothing. FUCK how ya feel

LOYALTY IS EVERYTHING...

what if i'm loyal to my heart

what if i dare to be happy

past is fading healing up my scars

but people envy those with clear skin..shyt i did.


whats more to say? i'll cut my ramblin short.
but if LOVING someone is a crime,
cuff me up
take me to court.